Tag: poetry

Aug 17th

SeanLeave a comment

A lot of pain in my heart that beats me down behind the scenes

A lot of tears in my eyes that my pride won’t let me see

A lot of mistakes, that turned to regrets

A lot of anger and stupid late texts

A lot of love with no more direction to give it

A lot of fear toward love and the will to get it.

A lot of time and the more it ticks the further we’ll be.

A lot on my mind, I want to stop thinking

A lot of hope looking at this phones screen wondering if you’re why it’s ringing.

A lot of memories that’ll fade away with a shot I didn’t take

A lot of questions, like do you see what I did for you now?

A lot of heeeelll naws, fuck her, and do you..

A lot has happened, there’s a lot more to life than this.

I just know that this time around our story ends

Just because neither of us knew how to really commit.

Transition

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Do you know about…

Biting your teeth so hard to stop the tears?

Avoiding mirrors just to not face the pain?

Playing music loud to drown out your heartbeat?

Taking deep breaths to calm your thoughts?

Closing your eyes to sleep but see the memories you loved?

Waking up to the cold area next to you where they should be?

Your hands remembering their warmth?

Crying out for help and being left to dry your own tears?

Letting go knowing you’ll never hold on again?

Having your love misunderstood?

Begging the one you love not to leave?

Leaving.

Looking back?

Leaving.

Running back?

Leaving.

Remembering?

Leaving.

Leaving.

Leaving.

Broken

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I didn’t want to leave

I was too stubborn to go to you.

Our souls bound.

I fear it’ll tear if I continue..

Running from you

Being mad at you

Hating you.

Everything but loving you.

It’ll tear.

Then I’ll finally know what broken is.

2 quintains & the truth.

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In time, the feelings will tick away.

Every second, is growth.

Every minute, brings clarity

Every hour, is progress.

Everyday, is a process.

••••• ••••• ••••• •••••

In time I will fade away.

In time the memories will too.

In time me, my love, my heart.

Will no longer be a memory to hold onto.

••••• ••••• ••••• •••••

No longer will I..

reach for something out of my grasp.

Want something that will never last .

Need someone more than myself.

Be let down by hopes that are too high.

No longer will I..

Be an option.

No longer will I try..

No longer.

I am

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I am..

The breeze that flows through life.

The one who fears failure during success.

The bird, limited, with potential to fly.

The moon that reflects off the city lights.

The oblivious that feels your intentions.

The lonely who needs something deeper.

The man in the shadows treading lightly.

Satisfied with nothing.

Full of mistakes, calling it “exploring life.”

Grinding for consistency.

Spending for acceptance.

Sleeping on people, dreams, & connections.

Waking up to push past the nightmares.

Sacrificing my wants to do what’s needed.

Yet I keep this mindset that;

I am killmonger.

I am King.

I am me.

(now that you just read through it, go back and add “I am” before every sentence besides the one with “yet”)

Much love.

Mixed Feelings

Sean3 Comments

Arguments with myself

So many fading memories

With very present pains

You shouldn’t be here so soon.

No more emotion we said

Why aren’t you listening

Go ahead and beat away

Don’t cry when they’re gone again

Nobody told you to open up

Cant fear being let down again

Are you even ready to start over

Ready for a new truth

Ready for new lies

Ready to embrace a new view

Do you trust yourself

You know you’ll mess up

Don’t forget this time

Perfection is not love

Love comes in time

So go ahead and beat away

You have a mind of your own

Looking for a simple place

Where you’re not beating alone