Sometimes you have to reset, breathe.. you know?

Trying to understand.. more like trying to balance life, balance my own sanity all without resorting to drinking and smoking more, almost often resorts in staying up so late battling my own thoughts, playing music and hoping to hear some type of inspiration.

Like fuck..

& I keep reminding myself that some people just say things to get a reaction and I’m left pushing through the pain or I feed into it, just to wonder why I did..

& some people want you in their life – distantly.

& sometimes its really just me but I blame others.

& sometimes I’m forgotten.

& sometimes I’m okay with all of it.

I never been one to fuck up the vibes but I guess I expect things to be a certain way too much.

Don’t mind me, I’m just venting, the writer side of me is on the lose, I’m not losing it though. There’s just a lot of problems that can’t be solved with just anyone helping or simple conversation. I’m just more worried about myself you know? I just gotta come home.. maybe then things will change.

Anyways. Whoever reads this little blog of mine, I hope you had a good thanksgiving. I spent mine alone this year and found myself missing home and family more than ever. SO appreciate y’all family!

You know what though, as much as I hate most holidays, I love thanksgiving for the food of course, but it reminds me what I have to be thankful for and in todays life I tend to look past what I have when I’m so focused on getting what I don’t.

I’ll post again around New Years

Until then..

(6lack One way ft Tpain)